The start to the day begun nicely, despite my brain being elsewhere since last night. This morning Lillie started working on writing an 'Owl Mail' letter to Harry Potter regarding Moaning Myrtle. Not only did it get her writing but her views & feelings brought about a very good discussion between us. We discussed what Lillie liked/disliked about her. Thus being mostly in favour of Myrtle. I reached the conclusion that Lillie really knows Moaning Myrtle's character well. After, Lillie busied herself with doing her own thing, so I browsed the net & had a peak at some other HEdding Blogs, saw something that may be of help to me on http://liveotherwise.co.uk/makingitup/ . (I cant seem to get web links to highlight on my postings anymore, so that readers can click on link & be taken straight to their page of interest). Somehow my comments on the said blog were not linking to my own blog! I blame my missing normal brain function. So left that to have lunch (though returned later to find I still couldnt get a link to my blog! Am I really that backward when it comes ot PC's?) and then spent an hour on knitting with Lillie. She intends on making a colourful little scarf for one of her soft toys. Its halfway to completion & Lillie is delighted with what has been a joint effort so far.
Lillie was just about to crack on with watching a DVD when a friend popped in for a cuppa & chat about something that has been occupying my mind and needed to be aired. However, for some unknown reason Lillie simply would not allow us to talk in private. I got quite bothered at this because time was not on mine or my friend's side with other committments to see to & the chat really needed to be had. I felt that today I could not get Lillie to understand the importance of her not over hearing two adults having an adult discussion. She refused to occupy herself out of ear shot and camped out on the stairs, which is a new one on me! So any chatting resulted in having to almost whisper!
Later I shared my thoughts with Lillie on how upset I was with how she had behaved, for which she was sorry for. I know at times the majority of children do 'play up' & also sense when all is not well, I remember doing so myself as a child, but as a parent I really could have done without it today. My deep thinking has been an overnight event & even stopped me from getting a decent night's sleep. However, despite my tiredness I had to put what is going on in my head to one side while Lillie & I worked together at times during the morning & early afternoon & it could have stayed on hold if I has not had the opportunity to discuss my thoughts with my friend.
The upsets did not stop there, as Lillie continued to ignore the fact that after our chat I needed time out to calm myself. She insisted on following me & was being quite demanding. I suggested she water our veg patch but then she found a dead frog in the watering can which totally upset her. Now there were two of us walking around in what can only be described as one big bad mood! We buried the frog at Lillie's request & after I asked her to settle with a book for half an hour so I could have that little breathing space! Then there came a knock at the door, it was the pick up driver collecting the keys to my next door neighbour's company car. He seemed a little put out that I wanted to see I.D & requested he provide me with some proof that the car had indeed been collected! But I wasnt about to let the car go until he carried out what I had asked & my neighbour knew in advance that I would be insistent with these requests as I didnt want either of us to have any negative comebacks.
In the meantime Lillie was still having her 'off' day & not interested in reading, but was with what was going on with the strange man on our doorstep. Once he was sorted, I felt exhausted from the day's events, so the only way I could move the day along to bring on the evening earlier was to let Lillie off having her bath, make something quick & easy for dinner & hope she would settle down ok for an earlier bedtime in order for me to chillax & look at my mind's thoughts with a different perspective.
Did it happen?
Well the house is all quiet so that is a good sign. But most importantly, we ended our day being friends again :o)
(UPDATE 7th SEPT: Ive sussed out how to highlight web links again! :o) )
Hope you had a better day today. I've been through days like that, its really hard when you need a bit of space and your child seems to need the opposite! Its easy to feel guilty, but we do our best and we're only human after all! X
ReplyDeleteThings are better now thanks Kara :o) Its nice to know Im not the only one who feels like that from time to time xx
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