Rollercoaster...

Wow, what an up and down time had since my last posting! Let's start with the unsettling 'down' times - last week I attended court. I can't go into detail regarding why, however, I represented myself. It was a moment in my life, filled with nerves and uncertainty. But, I think I did myself proud, with speaking the truth and felt like I was actually listened to. Outcome of that day was a sensible one, for which I am eternally grateful for. Though, it's not concluded yet.

Then, at the end of last week my 'Nanny' unexpectedly quit! It was explained to me that it was neither to do with myself or Lillie and I was reassured that she would stay until I had a replacement. That reassurance vanished by the time I went to bed that day. My 'Nanny' text to say she would not be back at all. She was apologetic, yet my head immediately filled with panic! My first thoughts were for my clients. My clients have grown used to me and we get along so well - now they would be getting someone else and possibly someone they have never met. I know all carers start off 'new' when they meet a client for the first time, yet clients prefer a familiar face and personality. It takes time to build up trust, a routine and a working relationship. I have with them.

First, I had to inform my branch I would not be available for work the following Monday morning. Cover would be arranged, but I had to wait the whole of last weekend before I knew what my position would be regarding my job. A job I love so passionately. Thank goodness for my family and friends for their support and words of encouragement.

Monday morning eventually arrived. I spoke with a colleague. She understood my situation and knows I am doing the best I can with finding a replacement 'Nanny'. To cut a long story short from this point; I have a meeting with a local Childminder tomorrow. She ticks all the boxes on paper regarding her experience/qualifications/provision. She sounds just like the person I want looking after Lillie while I am at work and tomorrow is about seeing her in person. I am looking forward to it, yet reserving judgement until I do. Fingers X'd, she clicks with Lillie and I. I am so wanting to get back to work and back to seeing my clients, if they are still rota'd for me. I am so wanting to come home from work and spend the rest of my day with my precious little girl and do all the things we do and don't do! and I am so wanting to go to sleep knowing that my day has been filled with what I care so much about.

Despite two 'down' turns on the rollercoaster we call life, our days have been wonderful. Lillie and I have been for a meal, watched the Olympics 2012 Opening Ceremony. Lillie saw more of it than I did though. I had to sort situation with no work Monday, immediately. Saturday, we went to see Ice Age 4 and after, was greeted by a stranger I rescued (alongside another stranger, who was passing by) last Friday morning. So, we had a brief chat and many 'thank yous' came my way. I was just relieved I was there to help him and that he was well.

After such an eventful 24 hours for Lillie, I spotted this...

 .... it's hard sometimes being an 8 year old! And tiredness simply catches up from time-to-time... And while Lillie was sleeping, my next door neighbour knocked to give Lillie a present. Lillie was overjoyed when she woke and made this....

 .... a 'thank you' card.

Today, Lillie and I had planned to go shopping for paint for her room. That plan changed! I received an invitation to visit my Grandad. I accepted. Lillie was very happy and looked forward to today. We were picked up by my Aunt and her partner and headed off straight away....

 .... Four generations in this pic - Lillie, the photographer (me), Lillie's Great Aunt Teresa and Lillie's Great Grandfather.

After a few hours of this and that, we headed off out for a meal....

 While waiting for our table, Lillie enjoyed the view of the sea.

After our meal, Lillie enjoyed a paddle in the sea...

 .... then just after this pic was taken, Lillie decided to sit down in the sea!! No change of clothes upon us.... Thankfully a carrier bag for the soaked jacket and a travel blanket for the car seat!

And an adult's t-shirt to change into back at Grandad's! Us adults found the whole scenerio amusing, especially when Lillie stated, "well at least I had fun!"

The day has ended perfectly... Lillie is sound asleep in bed now, with sea air running through her body and a very happy day with 3 generations of her maternal family running through her soul. She has not stopped smiling today and neither have I. And I am now off to bed to sleep soundly too... And be thankful for all that I have.